Winter Morning Blues...

One fine winter..i wake up to feel a blocked nose,with a heavy head,and no pinch of freshness..i badly want to fall back into the dreamy sleep world,away from all the feelings of practicality..just a temporary refuge from reality.I wonder if life could have been as easy as it seems to be while we are asleep.I take my toothbrush lazily and brush my teeth..only to make my teeth fresh...because i know there is no scope of me getting extreme freshness...the feeling of falling back into sleep world is overwhelmingly mind and heart,i so badly want to get into the warm blanket..away from the biting cold..away from water...uurrrggghhhhh...but that's not possible..m called for breakfast..dad waiting for me with love..and moreover what interests me is the food..somehow ...i feel fresh temporarily...i hog...half asleep...listening to what people surrounding me are talking...because till now i am not fully in my senses..my parents seem like dreamy creatures to me..n i just know that m eating....and they r talking..i don't have the ability to listen and register any of the talks..M just so deceased with the sleep.The chilling marble floor touching my feet,i am just so lazy to slip into my slippers..my shorts accompanied with the worlds biggest mismatched cots wool top of ma dad..i look like a scarecrow..at its best with a little life in it.Breakfast is over..n i am happy that i can sleep again in the warm blanket..in my room with orange curtains..making the early morning bright yellow sunlight tinged with orange..i go back to my room..with the freshness of falling asleep all over again,i so much love this rescue..the warmth of the blanket waiting for me to come to my bed lazily..away from the chilly morning breeze.I slip into my bed,and cover myself,it takes around 5 minutes for me to feel the warmth of the blanket since the cold outside has punctured whatever senses was left with me early morning..ahhh i so much love it..my eyes closed...tightly holding the blanket and my nose peeping out just to breathe and stay alive..i just wish i could put that too under the blanket..but i would suffocate instead of sleeping.I slowly start falling back into the dreamy world,my mind was getting numb..and i could feel half of the numbness since i was still a little awake.. and there comes the maid...full of energy..barges into the room..accompanied by my mother..and..i am back to my senses.I realize now i am wide awake..with the shock of her barging in and fidgeting with stuffs to keep them properly.My mum calling my name..i Open my eyes wide now..feel the irritation deep within my heart .y head throbbing..and i could feel the head-beat..instead of heart - beat.Now to serve the cake with a topping..the maid opens the curtains..and windows..the orange light is no longer there..i can see the harsh sunlight asking me to wake up so cruelly..uurrggghhh...I am wide awake..my mum around me..and her favourite maid around her.

Being what one is...

OK..so the world says,at every instance and every place we go..to be what you are...if one asks the meaning of this phrase..it would be quite easy to depict this simple English concept,the main obstruction comes to be faced when one has to apply it in practical life.If I want to describe what does "being what one is" means,is simply that one should only portray what one actually feels and avoid the idea of being fake and impressive through a fake portrayal.We are living in a highly technological,advanced,professional and competitive world,where everybody is running behind fame,recognition and money,I have seen in the normal social life,corporate world(not much exposed to this world) people have been overwhelming on there competitors,making and continuing relationships,and running behind a motive of money leading to only dissatisfaction and crave for more...all these have a backup of a fake personality being portrayed everywhere..at every instance the individual passes by..in friendship nowadays people portray to be different than what they actually are,just to trigger their importance in the minds of others with a posh n attractive behaviour..in the corporate world,which I feel is the best example of hypocrisy,individuals portray themselves to be something absolutely different than what they actually are,they become super courteous and show the other person that latter is just too important for him...but this lasts only till his work to be done is not completed...as soon as the former finishes his job,the entire story n scenario changes for him n for the other too..people just don't bother about anything except what work they have to do.They call this smartness..and their personal ability to "use people" or "getting their work done" by any means.Now if I elaborate on "getting work done" this would involve anything and everything to be done for their purpose,it involves emotional use,and also involves physical uses,assassinations,murders...and every possible harassment or mental pressure you can think of for getting ur stuff done by another.So in short this world can go to make people act according to their wishes.

So basically when we come down to what being you are is basically not portraying oneself in a fake personality,split personality ,its just portraying what the inner feelings of a human being are,and not to modify those feelings to suit the other persons demand and perceptions,or to cater to personal needs by doing so.this is the most easiest of everything in this world,and people have made it complex by modifying inner behaviour. Be what you are.....and then you can realize the power which the inner self gives you..it is stronger than the power of money,authority and any physical thing this world has to offer..try out people :)

thank you :)